"I often wanted to study up that myself what we have inside us in that family physician I could always hear his voice talking when the room was crowded and watch him after that I pretended I had a coolness on with her over him because he used to be a bit on the jealous side whenever he asked who are you going to and I said over to Floey" (U18.180)
"and he made me the present of lord Byrons poems" (U18.185)
"and the three pairs of gloves so that finished that" (U18.185)
"I could quite easily get him to make it up any time I know how even supposing he got in with her again and was going out to see her somewhere Id know if he refused to eat the onions" (U18.186)
"I know plenty of ways ask him to tuck down the collar of my blouse or touch him with my veil and gloves on going out 1 kiss then would send them all spinning however alright well see then" (U18.189)
"let him go to her she of course would only be too delighted to pretend shes mad in love with him that I wouldnt so much mind Id just go to her and ask her do you love him and look her square in the eyes she couldnt fool me but he might imagine he was and make a declaration to her with his plabbery kind of a manner like he did to me" (U18.191)
"though I had the devils own job to get it out of him though I liked him for that it showed he could hold in and wasnt to be got for the asking" (U18.196)
"he was on the pop of asking me too the night in the kitchen I was rolling the potato cake theres something I want to say to you only for I put him off letting on I was in a temper with my hands and arms full of pasty flour in any case I let out too much the night before talking of dreams so I didnt want to let him know more than was good for him" (U18.198)
"she used to be always embracing me Josie whenever he was there meaning him of course glauming me over" (U18.202)
"and when I said I washed up and down as far as possible" (U18.204)
"asking me and did you wash possible the women are always egging on to that putting it on thick when hes there they know by his sly eye blinking a bit putting on the indifferent when they come out with something the kind he is what spoils him I dont wonder in the least" (U18.205)
"because he was very handsome at that time trying to look like lord Byron I said I liked" (U18.208)
"though he was too beautiful for a man and he was a little before we got engaged" (U18.209)
"afterwards though she didnt like it so much the day I was in fits of laughing with the giggles I couldnt stop about all my hairpins falling out one after another with the mass of hair I had youre always in great humour she said yes because it grigged her because she knew what it meant because I used to tell her a good bit of what went on between us not all but just enough to make her mouth water" (U18.211)
"but that wasnt my fault she didnt darken the door much after we were married I wonder what shes got like now after living with that dotty husband of hers she had her face beginning to look drawn and run down the last time I saw her she must have been just after a row with him because I saw on the moment she was edging to draw down a conversation about husbands and talk about him to run him down" (U18.216)
"what was it she told me O yes that sometimes he used to go to bed with his muddy boots on when the maggot takes him just imagine having to get into bed with a thing like that that might murder you any moment what a man well its not the one way everyone goes mad" (U18.221)
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